I actually started writing in a journal yesterday. It feels so good recording all your big feelings in a little journal. Like you can't express them to other people and spill drama and stuff, but the journal can take it. And it feels so good that someone will listen to you. Haha. A piece of paper. Yes indeed. I love paper.

But I'm also becoming closer to God. Over Summer, I'm going to try and go to Church some Sundays with my dad and I pray every single night and sometimes even throughout the day. It makes my heart lift up and feel so much lighter. In other words, it just feels plain out awesome. I know some people may think I'm weird dedicating most of this journal to God, but I would dedicate every journal to him, every word I say, or every action I do. I'm becoming really Christian. The only problem I'm going to have is not cussing, but I don't think that's such a bad issue. I probably still will, but it's not that big.

Well I might write a poem about him or something. I'm beginning to write a novel. And I'm actually going to try and finish it and keep to it and maybe publish it someday. And I am going to start drawing more. I'm not focusing on boys anymore. And yes I say boys because that's how all of them act even if they're seniors in high school. Just have to take time and wait til they grow up which will take more than a couple of years. Haha. I'm not saying that to all the guys out there so please don't get offended. It might just be my area or something.

Well hopefully people read my journal again. No one ever reads these anymore. I use to get a ton of comments off of mine. I think I just have to get more active and post more art and stuff and maybe I'll become well known to my deviantart watchers.

Alright. Well I'm partying tonight like most Friday nights. 1 more week til school lets out! Woot! The seniors are already out, but I'll be one next year so it'll be awesome! My Junior year is finally over. I can't believe it! It's going waaay too fast.

I just recently added a new picture of my new haircut, my new dress, and just.. new. Haha.

I PROMISE I'm going to start drawing more. I just drew a chibi yesterday. See my problem is coloring them. I am fine with sketching, but I get way to lazy to scan it, lineart, and color the art piece. Haha. My problem last year was sketching them. I was okay with the coloring. Now it's totally opposite. And it seems like when I take a few months break, I get better at drawing. Does that make any sense? Does that happen to any of you?

Next year, I am doing 3 peoples senior pictures so far. I'm becoming a Photographer and they're paying me! So that's great since I can't find a job. The economy is sooo hard these days. Do you see gas raising up? $2.45. Sooner before you know it, it's going to be back up to $4! Then I'm going to shit!

Well anyway, I'm probably going to be writing a story the next few days and I just now finally am starting to write in a journal everyday. I just don't get it. I can't remember what I did yesterday until like 10 minutes later of thinking of it. So now that I have bad memory, I'll just record all that happened down in a journal. Somewhat like a diary.

Well that's a long journal entry. Please read and comment back. I love comments. I think everyone does.

Stole this from Sami-sama's journal entry.

.:FIRE:.

[x] You have a short temper.
[x] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[ ] You are very competitive.
[ ] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[x] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[ ] You often lose control over yourself.
[x] You can be quite reckless.
[ ] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[ ] People have often called you insane.
Total: 4

.:WATER:.

[x] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[ ] You rarely get angry.
[ ] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[ ] You think before you act
[ ] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[x] You like the rain.
[x] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[x] You are very generous.
Total: 6

.:EARTH:.

[ ] You are physically strong.
[ ] You have a close connection with nature.
[x] You don't mind getting dirty. [Unless I'm in good clothes, I don't]
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[ ] You could easily survive in the wild.
[x] You care about the environment.
[x] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[x] You rarely get depressed.
[ ] You aren't afraid of anything.
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 5

.:AIR:.

[x] You have a free spirit.
[x] You hate rules.
[x] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[x] You are very independent and outgoing.
[x] You are quite intelligent.
[x] You tend to be impatient.
[ ] You are easily distracted
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[x] You wish you could fly.
Total: 9

.: DARKNESS:.

[ ] You spend most of your time alone.
[ ] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[ ] You like creepy things.
[x] You like to play tricks on people.
[ ] Black is your favorite color.
[ ] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, video games, etc.
[ ] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are atheist.
[ ] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[x] You love to break the rules. [Not exactly break, more like bend]
Total: 2

.:LIGHT:.

[x] You are very polite.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them.
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[x] You are afraid of the dark.
[x] You hate violence.
[x] You hope for world peace.
[x] You are generally a happy person.
[x] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules.
Total: 7

I guess I'm Air maybe?

Today is my birthday! Yipee! My brothers might be coming down to see me and stuff. I never get to see them. Well I never get to see Nick, the oldest one. I only get to see him like once every 2 months.

You can draw some happy birthday art for me if you would like P

Here is stuff I'm interested in or whatever.

I love dolphins!!
And if you are into drawing cartoon characters or something, this is what I totally want:

A couple art!
Female
Reference: [link]
Body: Slim and tan
Hair: Brown, but with an orangish tin. It's parted to the left. The length reaches her chest
Eye: Blue gray
Clothes: Khaki looking jeans that flare at the bottom with white shoes. A black tanktop for an undershirt that you can see underneath the shirt. The main shirt is a pink shirt with a hoody
Accessorise: Dangly silver earrings with a silver necklace that has a little heart hung on it

Male
Reference: [link]
Body: Muscular and tan
Hair: Brown short. Yeah the refence picture has the best description. No beard though He's getting rid of it because he doesn't like it
Eye: Brown
Clothes: That blue shirt with jeans that are somewhat tight on his thighs but flare at the bottom. White shoes.
Accessories: Glasses

Thankies!!

Guess what's in 4 more days?!?! That's right. My birthday! I'm turning 17. Finally!! I hated being 16. Everyone said it's sweet 16, but it actually really sucks. Especially since it's like impossible to get a job these days and you have to start paying for gas and insurance unless your parents spoil you and pay it for you. But my parents aren't that cool.
My mom helps my twin sister and me out though. My dad will not give us even $1. But I guess that's making us more responsible so I don't mind.
I'm getting my license in about a month if I can get a job. My sister has a job and she has her license already because if I didn't have her as a twin sister, I would have my license by now, but we're trying to save money.


BUT 17 BABY!! Draw gift art for me? Just playing! You don't have to.

But I love dolphins!!
And if you are into drawing cartoon characters or something, this is what I totally want:

A couple art!
Female
Reference: [link]
Body: Slim and tan
Hair: Brown, but with an orangish tin. It's parted to the left. The length reaches her chest
Eye: Blue gray
Clothes: Khaki looking jeans that flare at the bottom with white shoes. A black tanktop for an undershirt that you can see underneath the shirt. The main shirt is a pink shirt with a hoody
Accessorise: Dangly silver earrings with a silver necklace that has a little heart hung on it

Male
Reference: [link]
Body: Muscular and tan
Hair: Brown short. Yeah the refence picture has the best description. No beard though He's getting rid of it because he doesn't like it
Eye: Brown
Clothes: That blue shirt with jeans that are somewhat tight on his thighs but flare at the bottom. White shoes.
Accessories: Glasses

Thankies!!